What happened??

This post is dedicated to everyone who has been asked this weird  question by your friends.

It was the orientation week in UPM. And i met this girl she was my old friend in school and i was happy to see her cuz i haven’t seen her in a while. So then i asked her what course are you taking and then she said major in ‘science’. I can’t remember the exact name of the course but i’m sure it was something scientific. Then she asked me back what course i’m taking. And then i answered degree in economics. She smiled not knowing how to react and then the conversation ended because the program was about to start or something.

That night in the dewan besar UPM. She sat in the row in front of me. I noticed her there and said hi. Then i don’t remember why the question suddenly came up but then she turned and asked me “Farah what happened?”

She was clearly asking why i’m not taking science anymore and why i got thrown to the faculty of economics of all the places. A simple question but it’s not the question that was bugging me it was your face and your tone of voice.

As if she’s saying what happened to you Farah? You were a bright, smart student in school with a bright future ahead of you. Did something happen to you in PALAM? Did your grades go down because you got involved with some shady people and got distracted by a cute guy or something? OR have you just gone stupid?  It must’ve been a really bad spiral because you’re not even in the science stream anymore.

So then i answered “Well i didn’t really get a good CGPA in foundation so i could only qualify for this”

Then she nodded her head and smiled then we continued talking and stuff. But that question she asked have been bugging me ever since. And the way i answered didn’t really help. So now i want to clear the air and explain myself.

Firstly, i just want to say nothing happened to me.

I didn’t get distracted and i didn’t get involved with shady people. Yes i failed some of my subjects but that’s because i didn’t understand them, but not because i got distracted.

And secondly i decided to get out of the science stream before the second semester started. Not because of my CGPA. Because i was miserable. I didn’t want to be in the science stream anymore. And i can’t imagine myself working in some lab or in a hospital doing research or whatever. So i consulted my mom about getting out of the science stream and she was okay with it.

And now i’m glad that i got offered this course because i’m loving it. I love to learn about consumer behaviour theory and the supply and demand curve and i find it interesting.

Thirdly, i don’t think all those years studying science was a waste now that i’m studying economics. My lecturer said that science students usually do well in economics because their brains have been trained for analysing stuff. So it will be useful when you’re trying to tackle economic questions that requires you to do critical analysis.

And besides my time in PALAM was the best time of my life. I gained knowledge and valuable experience. And best of all i made friends and they’re the best and they haven’t asked me silly questions like “what happened to you Farah?”

And lastly i don’t think it’s fair to say that i’ve gone stupid because i’m  no longer in the science stream. Economic students are smart, i mean most of them got 4 flat in their exams even the ones with the science background. And the syllabus for matrics and foundation are different. I’m saying they have different difficulty levels. ok i’m just going to leave it at that.

So the point is when you make a decision consult your parents because they have lived longer and they know you well and just follow your heart. Don’t make the mistake of making a decision based on what others might think of you. Like choosing to apply for a science course even though you don’t like it and it’ll make you miserable just because you were worried about what others might think of if you choose something else. It’s your life and people will comment but at the end of the day its still your life.

UPM i’m already here!!

Assalamualaikum..

hehe memang lame gile x update cam dh nk tutup dh blog ny.. jgn tegur lah pasal tu.

Anyway i am happy to tell you that next week i will be going to upm to further my studies! yay! I got offered degree in economics.

Memang upm dekat gile dgn rumah so nk ckp upm i’m coming pon pelik cos technically i’m already here.

I am grateful for this amazing opportunity to study a different subject coz being in science just did not work for me. So in a way this is sort of like an escape route out of the science stream. And that’s just awesome.There is a risk but every course has its difficulties.

Sebenarnya bukan nk ckp pasal upm or economics i just want to tell you something that’s really bugging me right now.

You know i have a fear of making new friends because i’m terrified of turning back into that  weird girl in school whom for some reason no one wants to talk to.

This did not happen in palam when i was studying foundation in science. I had real friends and they actually want to hang out and talk to me. I never went to the cafe to eat alone, i always had friends with  me.  I was really happy about that.  I was no longer the anti social girl anymore. And people did not avoid me like i have some kind of highly contagious flesh eating bacteria.

So i’m really hoping and praying that in UPM i will have friends like in Palam. Because the last thing i want is to be the friendless girl sitting in the cafeteria alone.

But lately i’m noticing a pattern.  I started to reconnect with the people from school on facebook like on their facebook group and stuff. But whenever i post something like a simple question like ‘who here has a twitter account’, the post is seen by almost everyone but no one responds to it. So i was optimistic maybe they were busy or they just didn’t notice that post. but then just recently i saw that this certain classmate in school got into upm too when he posted a question on upm’s facebook group.

So i commented on his post just to be polite and say hi to a fellow upm newbie. But then that ‘classmate’ replied and acknowledged everyone else  who commented but me. Except me. So my comment just remains there without anyone responding to it. It’s like i’m a crazy fangirl who’s posting on harry styles’s twitter acount. It’s embarassing and just pathetic.

But you do get it right? It’s like everyone in my previous school got a memo that says please ignore farahatun najihah coz she’s a crazy, freaky  chick that will cling to you forever. So i’m worried that in UPM there will be lots of people from my previous school and they will send out this imaginary memo to everyone else. Then i’ m doomed to turn back into that anti social girl who no one dares to make eye contact with!

All i can do is pray and hope for the best.

But maybe there’s a slight chance that i’m just being paranoid.

Coz i still have one friend that’s still talking to me and she’s from my previous school. (hai yan!! )

I really hope I’ll be able to make new friends and they won’t think i’m crazy.

I really hope i’m just imagining things.

Anyway you’ll hear from me soon, right after orientation is over, with loads of pictures with my new friends, i hope.

Farah

The difference between fact and opinion

It’s important to know that there is a clear difference between fact and opinion and stuff that are relevant and irrelevant.

For example: I suck at math and chemistry. FACT. Cuz i failed on both subjects.

I can still get an A on future tests and finals. OPINION. Cuz the fact says otherwise.

 

Now for relevant and irrelevant. Relevant is important. Irrelevant is the total opposite.

Finals is on 27 March which is like 3 or 4 weeks away. RELEVANT. Very relevant.

I want to puke and then scream and the cry. IRRELEVANT. Cuz no one cares.

I’m not mad. I’m not upset. Just a little stressed out. Ok i’m really stressed out but who isn’t?!!!

Enough about me. I hate it when i talk about myself in this blog. It makes me look like a self centered freak!

One last example: You are the only one I know that can pull off that look and still look hot and cute all at the same time. So don’t ever change. RELEVANT.

Farah

The opposite of an A

okay. I just need to get this out of my system so i can move on with my life.

Test 1 didn’t go so well. I flunked chemistry and mathematics. I failed. Now i don’t feel so good. I might look like i’m clueless most of the time but i don’t usually fail in tests. but asasi sains is way different than school.

I don’t know what to do. I don’t know where to go from here. I don’t know what i’m going to choose for degree courses, or if i’m even qualified to apply.  I’m not good at biology chemistry or physics or math. And i’m not that good in English either You can clearly see that from my writing. So now i don’t know what to do.

And it doesn’t help that i’m the only failure in e8. i feel like the dumbest kid in there. i am the dumbest kid in there. This is bad. This is not good.

I have to seriously consider changing my way of studying. Maybe join a study group or something.

Glad i got that out of my system. Now i need to like wipe my memory about failing test 1 so that i can focus on the finals or something.

anyway thanks for reading..

Long weekend and studying

Happy Weekend!!!

I get it some of you might not be happy with the test coming up soon and all. Tapi at least physis and math dah lepas..

and i gotta say physics and math haritu susah gile!!

But for me everything is difficult.

Whatever. Let’s not think of the past and keep moving forward. Concentrate on the future.  

But it’s still not too late to study.

Tips on how to get 4flat in foundation science.

 

 

 

 

1. Study, study, study.

Duh! Obviously you have to study.

 

 

 

 

2. Try not to study alone.

If you ever get stuck on something you can’t understand ask a friend to help you. Don’t be scared to ask for their help. They won’t get annoyed or scold you if you don’t understand. Good friends will always help you and would want you to achieve success with them.

 

3. Be positive and avoid being stressed out.

My friend Syai she’s so positive she forgot there even was a test and made plans to go jogging on the day of the test. We had to remind her that there was a test on that day.

So don’t panic and just relax. Stressing out won’t solve anything. Crying doesn’t help either. The best you could do is to relax and take a deep breath.  Try selawat ke, baca doa ke.. Anything but panic.

 

I really do have to start taking my own advice.

Ok so, every cloud has its silver lining.

Stress + pressure = adrenalin rush + wild imagination + creative mind.

Let me explain.  Everytime i go through a stressful phase of my life i always end up with a blank piece of paper and my favourite pen writing a story. and the stories i write when i’m stressed out is way better than the ones i write when i’m happy. Those stories look like crap when compared with the ones i write when i’m stressed out or depressed.

So this year i’m gonna write a story about the future where everyone in e8 is all grown up and married and having a career. It’s gonna be awesome.

Basically there are 5 weddings in one weekend and a girl goes on a road trip visiting a wedding in kedah and other weddings and one last wedding in Johor where all of e8 will reunite in the most awesome reunion. So during the road trip the girl will meet all her other friends who have careers and already married.

I wanna make this story realistic and i wanna write about the characters properly matching e8’s real personality. and i’m also excited writing about the weddings and writing a detailed description of your future partners. It’s gonna be an adorable, lovely story.

I’ll write it soon. Gotta take advantage of the stressful situation.

Anyway, thanks for reading. :D

Farah

Drama : Last minute studying

I got the idea of writing this story after studying physics for two whole hours. So, expect this story to be weird and maybe annoying. Don’t blame me, blame it on physics and that kirchoff dude.

 

Characters

Ivy  : a very positive girl who’s mission in life is to make everyone happy like her( kinda like spongebob). She is a Foundation science student.

Ty : an expert at being grumpy and seems to enjoy thinking negative. Also a foundation science student.

Ivy is at a cafe waiting for her friends to arrive. Ty happens to be there drinking coffee while reading physics textbook. Ivy excited about something could no longer wait for her friends to come so she walks over to Ty’s table and sits there. Ty realizing the presence of someone beside him puts down his textbook. Ivy flashes the brightest smile she could  and greets him with a simple “hi'”. Ty says hi back and smiles just to be polite but inside he is thinking of ways to escape from the girl famous for being extremely annoying and insanely positive.

Ivy: Hey.. Whatcha doin???

Ty: Physics. (points at book). You?

Ivy: I’m talking to you, silly. (laughs) I’m bored. My friends are always late and I always end up waiting. So you don’t mind if I sit here while I wait, do you?

Ty: Actually, I…

Ivy ignores him and picks up her bagpack from her table and carries it to Ty’s table.

Ivy: Good. Coz seriously I am bored to death.

Ty: Yeah. Sure. But…um… I  would really appreciate if you keep quiet coz I have work to do and all..

Ivy: Of course. You won’t even notice I’m here. I’ll be quiet. Quiet as a… um… I’ll be quiet.

Ty: Ok. Good.

Ivy kept quiet for a few seconds, checking her phone now and then. But then she felt bored. She sighed loudly, tapped her fingers on table, sighed again. Ty starts to feel annoyed.

Ivy was clearly bored out of her mind and she was getting restless. She had to say something, anything. She glanced at Ty’s book to see what he was doing. Ty realized that Ivy was peering over his shoulder. He closes the book and stares at Ivy angrily.

Ivy: Good. You’re done studying. Let’s talk. So physics. That reminds me. Just the other day in physics lecture, the funniest thing happened. Well it’s not that funny, kinda weird actually. I saw a cricket doing whatever it does making that sound…

Ty: krik….krik..krik..

Ivy: Yes, exactly! Only this one was real and I mean it’s so funny cause that’s exactly what I hear all the time in my head. Coz I don’t understand anything when it comes to physics.

Ty: That must be scary.

Ivy: What? No! Crickets are cute, not scary.

Ty: No. I mean what’s scary is that you don’t understand anything. There’s a test coming you know. And finals and everything.

Ivy: Oh… well I never thought of it that way before. Anyway, do you remember biology class today? That video about that cell….

Ty: We learned about immunity system right?

Ivy: Yeah, yeah. As I was saying it was so funny to see how that natural killer cell destroyed that bad cell. It kinda looked like the matrix with the whole slow motion thing and all..

Ty: I thought you were gonna talk about the tutorial homework and the lab report we were supposed to submit this Friday. But… (chuckles) that video was kinda funny.

Ivy: Yeah I totally forgot about that. And there’s a math test next week. And a chemistry quiz and the finals. Oh my God the finals!!

Ty: Calm down Ivy. The finals is in March. It’s still early.

Ivy: Yeah right. There’s like uh….. 12 weeks left!  wait no.. 10 weeks… there’s like only 10 weeks to prepare!!

Ty: Hey, relax! Let’s talk about something else. Do you think the lecturer has posted that funny bio vid yet? I would really like to watch it again. Seriously that video is awesome.

Ivy: Who cares about that video?! I gotta go home and catch up on my studies.

Ivy stands up and gathers her things.

Ty: Wait. I thought you were waiting for your friends to come.

Ivy: I don’t have time for that now. Just tell them I’m sick or something. Sorry to bother you Ty, you can study physics now.

Then Ivy walked out of the place. Ty wanted to study, he knew he should but after talking to Ivy his view has changed. He flips open his laptop and googled ‘3D animation of natural killer cell’ and consequently updated his status on facebook and twitter completely ignoring his physics textbook.

The End

So the main idea about this story is…. you should not leave your friends waiting, coz this will happen. Oh, who am i kidding. This story doesn’t have a point.  I wrote it just for fun.

Thanks for reading :D

FARAH

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